Today has been a yoyo.

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My day at work was a low. Coming home with groceries to find Cheb's gift was a high. Later this evening I got hit with another low. I'm left wondering about a lot of things tonight. I'm confused, and I'm hurt. Not all of it is related to the events of one year ago, although they no doubt helped to color my mood this evening to some extent. Some of this, though, has been boiling under the surface. Tensions. Doubts. Worries. It's coming to a head.

I'm going to go to bed. Staying awake doesn't help me sort this out. It only fuels my frustration and makes me want to make rash, angry decisions -- something I might regret later.

Most of all, right now: I want to curl up and sleep. I don't want any dreams. I want to just sleep. Please, for once... let me just have peace.

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[gen.livejournal.com]

Sleep well, hon. I'm sorry you've had such a bad day.

[kristenq.livejournal.com]

Want to talk about it? If you have AIM, mine is linuxkittyocom. k at linuxkitty dot com. And if you're on taps, my public name is katneko. Maybe you can help me figure out this whole Muck business, too. =P

[aynjel.livejournal.com]

Just remember... sleep is a temporary cure. *hug*

I think that even at your most irrational, you're not one to make off-the-cuff decisions. I think that if things have been bubbling under the surface for a while, in spite of not consciously thinking about it, you've probably been working at it. It may feel rash, at the moment, but I don't think it will be entirely unthought-out (ghod, what a non-word).

Take care of yourself, first, sweetie.