Color me frustrated...

... even if I have no idea what color that emotion might possibly be. I will make sure to consult with those of you who own full Prismacolor sets at something point in the future to see if there's something that might come close enough to suit.

I've spent the last hour or so sitting in the darkness of the apartment. I've got the blinds closed and my MP3 collection playing at fairly low volume on my PC. The only sounds aside from the tunes and the soft, slow hum of computer equipment is the constant fire of keys from where Twan and Lana sit. Even with those two in the apartment, sitting not more than 10 feet away from me I feel very much isolated and to some extent alone. I'm not saying that I'm lonely, just that I feel alone.

( Further blither beyond. Some updates. Some angst. Lots of rambling. )

Color me frustrated...

... even if I have no idea what color that emotion might possibly be. I will make sure to consult with those of you who own full Prismacolor sets at something point in the future to see if there's something that might come close enough to suit.

I've spent the last hour or so sitting in the darkness of the apartment. I've got the blinds closed and my MP3 collection playing at fairly low volume on my PC. The only sounds aside from the tunes and the soft, slow hum of computer equipment is the constant fire of keys from where Twan and Lana sit. Even with those two in the apartment, sitting not more than 10 feet away from me I feel very much isolated and to some extent alone. I'm not saying that I'm lonely, just that I feel alone.

( Further blither beyond. Some updates. Some angst. Lots of rambling. )

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With all that out of the way, let it be said that I continue to hope that I will be better able to write. I don't like going a week or more without putting in an entry. But, having said that, let it also be said that I will not stare at an open LJ client for more than an hour anymore. I think all it serves to do is increase my anxiety and frustration, which further contributes to my being unable to write. Inspiration to share and write has to drive me, not an arbitrary goal I set at the beginning.

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With all that out of the way, let it be said that I continue to hope that I will be better able to write. I don't like going a week or more without putting in an entry. But, having said that, let it also be said that I will not stare at an open LJ client for more than an hour anymore. I think all it serves to do is increase my anxiety and frustration, which further contributes to my being unable to write. Inspiration to share and write has to drive me, not an arbitrary goal I set at the beginning.