Bleah.

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It's been quite some time since I last wrote in here. I've had plenty of interesting things happen, yet I still haven't been inspired or particularly motivated to write.

In other news I do have a gripe brewing in the back of my head after I noticed something in the john today, but that's a story for another time.

I've found myself lacking in patience more and more as the days go by. My tolerance for the typical corporate bullshit that gets perpetuated at the office has dropped to nearly zero. I've grown short with people online. So many people that I don't even really know seem to have expectations set for me that are completely arbitrary and, frankly, total bullshit. For example: a random acquaintance online (I met him all of once in real life) got in a snit when I wouldn't give my e-mail address out so that he could try to win some contest that requires you send in a form with your e-mail. I'm not in the business of giving out my e-mail addresses (especially since I've just finally gotten converted over to one that's not spammed fifteen thousand times a day). I'm also not in the business of doing "favors" like that for people I don't know. That's pretty goddamn brazen, paging somebody out of the blue so you can impose upon them to win some fucking new toy or another.

For the first time in years I feel the overwhelming urge to role play again -- but very few people I know in the online world actually role play. A vast majority of the folks I do know online use it as a cheap alternative to the telephone. The few people that I know who do RP aren't in the mood to do it, or aren't around, or what have you. So I've all but given up on that idea, and put it back on the shelf to accumulate dust for a few more years.

By and large I'm just being made cross by nearly everything I encounter. I want to go out and socialize, but at the same time I want to stay away from everyone. It's a hell of a frustrating quandary.

I can't wait for this funk to break.

I want a cigarette.

The economy was getting' so bad
I had to lay myself off

Comments

[genet.livejournal.com]

By and large I'm just being made cross by nearly everything I encounter. I want to go out and socialize, but at the same time I want to stay away from everyone. It's a hell of a frustrating quandary.

That is exactly what I was trying to express in our conversation tonight. I have lost all patience with people in general, and I don't want to be bothered with the social niceties of being polite.

Not too long ago, I roleplayed in all my encounters. Now, most of the time, I can't be bothered. When I want to roleplay, I'm usually at work, and when I ahve the chance to RP undistracted, I'm tired or.. just not at my best.

I do encourage you to write though, Fer. Even if it's just private entries for yourself. Since I've been writing in my offline journal, it's really helped to clarify thoughts, and I feel less like I'm out of control of things.

I want to thank you for the advice on my parental situation, and for the distractions you provided tonight. Both were what I needed to hear.

*snug*

[jenwolf.livejournal.com]

I really want to get back into roleplaying again, but in the book and dice sort of way.

[hakeber.livejournal.com]

Gee, I reached that point in my life, like, ten years ago. Long before I became a parent. And being a parent has not improved my attitude. I know we're a bit far up the pike to just come see whenever, but you'd always be welcome to come hang out with the rest of us bitter old farts. Heh.

And as for writing, Kestrel is right and not the only one saying this. Writing keeps the mind sharp as one ages. Like all else, intellect is a use it or lose it sort of thing, so even if you just keep the entries private, or to a very limited audience, keep writing.

And no smoking. It's bad for the pets.