I can't sleep, and it figures.

[feren]

As I've implied earlier, the last few weeks have found me running on close to zero energy. I've been exhausted on an almost constant basis. One could blame the holidays and a drastically changed sleep schedule, but I think that may be oversimplifying things a bit. Given how lethargic and "detached" I've been during my waking hours I made it a point to go to bed at a relatively decent hour on Sunday night. Naturally, this plan was thwarted -- I woke up from another almost-nightmare at some time around 2:30 this morning and I've been tossing and turning ever since -- two hours later and counting at this point. I think I've been in and out of bed six or seven times by now, often enough that Ra doesn't even lift his head when I sigh and climb out from under the covers to go wander around the house in an aimless type of pacing. Then I go lay back down for another twenty or twenty-five minutes, toss and turn a bit more, get up and repeat the act. Maybe I'm so frustrated at being awake that I've made it impossible for myself to go back to sleep. Sort of a "watched pot never boils" type of scenario? I dunno. I just know that precious hours of rest are slipping away from me and I'll pay for with interest when I'm at the office in four and a half hours.

Until this morning I had gone something like six months without any real manifestation of my insomnia, so I guess now is as good a time as any for it to make a return. This should make it a real treat to be at work today -- I'll be floating around in that semi-cognizant state that one only achieves on the fine line of sleep deprivation, where it seems like you're drunk but you're actually just sorta sleep-walking. Feren Predicts ^TM that in an effort to stay awake and aware of my surroundings at work I'll be drinking so much Mt Dew I should invest in Pepsi stock.

I feel like I should put this unscheduled time awake to some sort of good use by reading a book or doing something productive, but I can't seem to think of anything to direct my attention towards at the moment. I also hate the places my mind wanders to during times like this. Racing thoughts, old memories surfacing and it's never anything good.

There's a lo-fi heartache

Comments

[nekosensei.livejournal.com]

That's okay. I have a cold and earlier yesterday evening, I was so tired I didn't know what to do with myself and it was too early to go to bed. I ended up watching anime and other stupid videos I saw online untill bedtime. Then, I went to bed and had a hard time falling asleep because of all of the congestion. Not fun...

[ottr.livejournal.com]

I've been having a return of the insomnia again, so you aren't the only one. I used to do the get-up-and-pace thing to stretch my legs, but I found that that only helps to further wake me up, so now I just huddle up under the covers and wait for the sleep to take over. Not that that helps much either...

[onceagainplease.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear man. I can honestly say that I feel your pain.
Athe the moment insomnia isn't my problem, as it has been in the past. I cant seem to find enough hours in the day lately.
But when I couldn't sleep in the past I found that taking 3mg of melatonin and laying down in front of a tv playing something I am very familiar with really conks me right out. Use something like babylon 5 or any show that you basically know by heart. This usually works with me...
Hope you can find some rest.
Stanley

[yotogi.livejournal.com]

Tangentially related to this, my dad maintains that leaving the TV on Headline News used to knock him right the fuck out.

[youngvanwinkle.livejournal.com]

Melatonin, 5mg, sublingual. Works for me, maybe it'll help you.

Oh, and try laying off the caffeine in the after-work hours.

[captain18.livejournal.com]

Diagnosis: A deficiency of fresh B(. )( .)BIES.
Prescription: Mardi Gras in St. Louis.

[hightensile.livejournal.com]

I <3 that icon.

[hightensile.livejournal.com]

I got prescribed a sleeping pill after my little incident with the SUV. Now our medical issues are very different I will grant you, but the occasional pharmeceudical aid can be useful in the extreme.

No, Bombay Sapphire does not count.

--kit

[feren.livejournal.com]

[the occasional pharmeceudical aid can be useful ... No, Bombay Sapphire does not count.]

Dammit.